Michelle Shocked - Russian Roulette Lyrics

I need this hopeless feeling
Like I need a hole in my head
Give up my whole days wages
To get this hole in the wall

I call a holster that is empty
Just a gun to the head
I am a holy roller
I'm playing Russian Roulette

I've been told gambling's a sin
I'm gonna place my bet
I'm gonna play to win
Yes, I'm sure it's a cure for the blues
You lose you win, you win you lose

I cried, "Oh sweet Lord"
But there's no hope in praying
Somebody hold me tight
I'm in a whole lot of pain

I'll be a whole lot older
When this day is done
I say Russian Roulette
Is just a hole in one