Melissa Ferrick - Then So It Is Lyrics

Where am I going?
Trying to regain control
But no matter how I dress it up
I always end up alone

So why must I come here every time?
I back myself against a wall
And why is it still so surprising to me
When I try to conquer, I fall?

But I want to feel like a bird
Singing in an open cage
And I want to be in a love
Where we are free to wonder

I want to lay down with my eyes shut
And let the mystic take my sadness
And if this is what you call madness
Then so it is

I drive myself crazy
Yeah, crazy in a constant spin
That one day soon, you know
I'm going to get my life
I'm going to get my life back together again

But can you see me now?
Can you see me now?
Can you see me standing here?
I'm waving a white flag to win

'Cause I want to feel like a bird
Singing in an open cage
And I want to be in a love
Where we are free to wonder

I want to lay down with my eyes shut
And let the mystic take my sadness
And if this is what you call madness
Then so it is