Blue October - The End [Acoustic] Lyrics

Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn
Worms squeezing their way through my toes
Tonight that's how it goes

I'm at your window kneeling quiet
Thought at least I'd maybe try to get your head right
Your heart right, let him go

Then through the glass I see
Your dress fall to the floor
As he embraces every inch of you
The woman I adore

I can't believe the way you're bending
Can't believe this never ending
Moaning, asking him for more
Begging him for more

How far will I go
To make it feel right?
Come home
I have to fix this on my own

Replace my heart
'Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end
Replace my heart
I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping end

I crept in close enough
To see the way he touched her
From her feet across her knees
Inside her sweetest spot he pleased her

I turned around and tried to take control
No control was capable, was cynical
How less than low can possibly go?

I squeezed the life into my veins
Like pushing knives in vain
I'm gonna get the fuck inside

So through the back window I crawl in silence
Standing in the darkness of my living room, mine
This used to be my home

How far will I go
To make it feel right?
Come home
I'm moving forward to the bedroom door

Replace my heart
'Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end
Replace my heart
I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping end

I turn the doorknob with two fingers
To be slow enough to sneak into the room
Among the corner darkness gloom

I had to see this happening
He pushed himself so deep inside her
Clapping rang and bounced off
Every wooden walled room

And that's when all went silent
Blank except the color red
As I walked calmly numbing
Paralyzed beside the bed

I said, "I know I'm not allowed to be here
I just had to see how good
Your new man really fucks you
'Cause you both been fucking me"

So now I planned the last thing
You can both do as a pair
I tie both blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes
To blind your stare

I don't want to alarm you
But I figured we could end this in
What seems easy quick and painless, bitch
I'll get down to business

I choose you first
There's a gun, it's at your head
So laugh at me again
Put your face inside the bed

You sit and watch me while I do this shit
And learn from what I've said
I cocked the pistol, pulled the trigger
And all I saw was red

How far will I go
To make it feel right?
Come home
I have to fix this on my own

Then the screaming, oh, the screaming
It's nice to see you scared
Of such a weak and stupid husband
Who knows you never really cared

I'll leave you with a question
That I need to hear from your head
Was all this worth it knowing
You have just seconds left to live?

So you answer
Laying face down on the bed
I cocked the pistol, pulled the trigger
And all I saw was red

I gently stroke her arm
As she lies on her back
Then put the barrel in my mouth