Alkaline Trio - Ruin It Lyrics

I've waited a long time for this life
Just to ruin it, so please don't ruin this for me
Yes to understand this lie, hell I crossed those T's
I scratched out all these I's myself last night
When I promise not to fight

So this is what I'm looking like these days
I'm all grown up, so full of hate
But I don't wanna let go of my age
'Cause it's the salt that brings the taste

So where am I to decide that I'm not right

'Cause I might break and I might bend
Your heart string's out of tune again
And I might try to apologize on a good day
On my best day if you stick around

Did I stay inside to sterilize this knife?
Am I being to careful? Does this seem right?
Did I open up the shades to expose the sunny rays
To show what burned there inside?

Yeah, take a close look, hold me right up to the light

'Cause I might break and I might bend
Your heart string's out of tune again
And I might try to apologize on a good day
On my best day if you stick around

I've waited for so long, I've waited for so long
Spread me out, rake me in
This scorched and rocky field will camouflage my skin

And I might break and I might bend
Your heart string's out of tune again
And I might try to apologize on a good day
On my best day if you stick around
On my best day if you stick around